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Edgar, Benjy, Gideon, Fabian, Agnes, Al, Dorcas, Dedalus, Meaghan. Nine in nine months.

... Caradoc's lost his wife and his unborn child twice. They're killing pregnant women, they're killing LITTLE KIDS and these are the people who are RUNNING OUR GOVERNMENT. I'm almost glad Remus is against ever having kids. What kind of fucked up world would we be bringing them into? There are times when I'm almost... relieved, I suppose, that the others aren't around to see how bad things have gotten, or how much worse they're going to get. I hate myself a little for thinking that way.


I don't know what to do. We're not planning anything that is actually going to stop them. Our experience, our abilities, our morals won't let us do what's actually necessary. We're only planning things that will annoy them, and a lot of good that will do. We're an irritating thorn in their side that can only poke at them for so long before they destroy the entire rosebush it came from.

Why are we bothering? We can't win this, fighting this way. Why are we not doing as much damage as we can until they catch up to us? Why is giving them a taste of their own medicine so wrong if it stops them from bringing more hurt and more pain and more death to innocent people, people who have NOTHING to do with this? Most of them aren't born killers. Their society mindwarps them into being like this, I know that. So how is it not HELPING THEM ALONG to hold back and let that society of bloodism and murder spread even further than it already has? How isn't it JUST as immoral to sit back and know that these people aren't going to stop. They're not. They won't. Instigating them, irritating them doesn't make them kill. They would kill anyway.

Pissing them off just makes their targets more specific.

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[Remus]

I know I've said it a million times but be careful with this wedding stuff, alright?

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I had no idea when I was younger just how depressing some of the songs that I loved could be. I think it's because kids tend to be drawn towards the actual music rather than the lyrics, and it's not til later that you can look back and realise just how dark they were.