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Marlene Lupin is plotting her revenge (on_the_wall) wrote,
@ 2009-05-31 20:36:00

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I keep asking myself all these awful "what if" questions and I want to stop. It was Riley's roommate. Riley's roommate was a Death Eater. God, who the FUCK ELSE IS?

This was a good thing. We took out the Prophet, we put out our paper, and we had probably the most successful radio show yet. All of us got out of there and for once, their numbers are slightly smaller. We did what we needed to do, and we got what needed to be done done. It's not a protest any more. It hasn't been for a long time. It's a war, and in wars you kill or be killed and you stop hesitating.

But I couldn't do it. I let someone die but I couldn't kill them and I don't know if it's the same thing or something worse. If it would've been Pryce, or one of the Lestranges, I wouldn't've hesitated. At least, I don't think I would have. I want to believe that I wouldn't have, and at the same time that scares the shit out of me. ~~If we have kids someday, how d~~

I think that my family would be so fucking disappointed in me and it is making me sick.

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[Remus]

I think my adrenalin high is finally crashing big time. Tell me something happy?

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	Marlene. moonstricken 2009-05-31 08:03 pm UTC (link)
	It's spring, and your flowers are in bloom. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Remus. on_the_wall 2009-05-31 08:11 pm UTC (link)
	It's getting to be so pretty back there. Just wait until the end of June. It'll be great. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marlene. moonstricken 2009-05-31 08:28 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sure it will be beautiful. Are you alright? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Remus. on_the_wall 2009-05-31 08:32 pm UTC (link)
	Who ended up doing it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marlene. moonstricken 2009-05-31 08:33 pm UTC (link)
	Moody. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Remus. on_the_wall 2009-05-31 08:45 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry I left. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marlene. moonstricken 2009-05-31 08:52 pm UTC (link)
	No, don't be. We all needed to leave. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Remus. on_the_wall 2009-05-31 08:55 pm UTC (link)
	I froze. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marlene. moonstricken 2009-05-31 08:57 pm UTC (link)
	I have, too. It's not easy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Remus. on_the_wall 2009-05-31 09:01 pm UTC (link)
	I promised myself I wasn't going to anymore and I still did. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marlene. moonstricken 2009-05-31 09:33 pm UTC (link)
	There is no way to train yourself for something like that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Remus. on_the_wall 2009-05-31 09:54 pm UTC (link)
	I know you can't train for it, but I need to be able to do it. I should've at Hogwarts and I didn't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marlene. moonstricken 2009-06-01 06:09 pm UTC (link)
	I know, love. I'm sorry -- I don't know what to say. I'm not sure how to help you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Remus. on_the_wall 2009-06-01 06:15 pm UTC (link)
	Do you think you would've done it if Moody hadn't? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marlene. moonstricken 2009-06-01 06:18 pm UTC (link)
	I was going to stupefy her so she was unconscious. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Remus. on_the_wall 2009-06-01 06:23 pm UTC (link)
	I think if it would've been someone else I would've been able to. She was at me and Riley's birthday party last year. I thought that we'd figured out almost all of them and I had NO IDEA that she could've been one. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marlene. moonstricken 2009-06-01 06:28 pm UTC (link)
	How would you have done it? We just have to be careful of who we trust, I'm afraid. None of us knew. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Remus. on_the_wall 2009-06-01 06:37 pm UTC (link)
	I have no idea. I guess it would depend on who it was. I hate that. That freaks me out more than a lot of the things we've run into have. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marlene. moonstricken 2009-06-01 06:53 pm UTC (link)
	Do you think you would be able to cast the Killing Curse? All we can do is remain diligent. We weren't as careful back then as much as we are now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Remus. on_the_wall 2009-06-01 07:01 pm UTC (link)
	I have no idea. I feel like... if it were you, or Lil or one of the guys in trouble then I want to think that I could. If it were one of the Lestranges, or Pryce or Greyback, I think I could do it. Maybe. And at least it wouldn't hurt but it's still one of the Unforgivables, and I keep thinking about Dorcas and how angry I was at her but maybe she had the right idea. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Remus. on_the_wall 2009-06-01 10:09 pm UTC (link)
	Could you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marlene. moonstricken 2009-06-01 11:19 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know. I don't think I could. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Remus. on_the_wall 2009-06-01 11:28 pm UTC (link)
	What would you think if I did? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Marlene. moonstricken 2009-06-01 11:35 pm UTC (link)
	I would think that you did what was necessary. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Remus. on_the_wall 2009-06-01 11:41 pm UTC (link)
	You wouldn't think I was just as bad as them for actually being able to? (Reply to this) (Parent)